blog purpose and intro

So... here goes.  I am starting this blog as a sort of public self therapy.  I am on a journey to fix my crazy.  Everybody has bits of crazy, and that is what makes us human.  It is through facing our weaknesses that we overcome them.  But we have to fight.  And so fight I shall.  It isn't pretty, and it isn't easy, but it is good.  I am fighting insecurity, perfectionism, depression, self deprecation and an inability to focus.  But I'm going to lay it all out on the line and face the ugly things I do not care for about myself.  And if my ramblings, ideas and personal solutions could help anyone besides me, then I have an obligation to share.  I like my opinion, if you do not that doesn't hurt my feelings.  (But if you are cruel about your differing opinion it might.)

 I dislike conflict, and because of such have honed the skill of finding a middle ground.  Truth is a balance, not black and white.  I am fighting extremism and close mindedness.  I am a pacifist.  I will endeavor to wield my pacifism as a weapon to combat pigheadedness.  This does not always mean I am always right.  Learning is a fluid process, and making mistakes is a part of that.  Wisdom is being able to see your own mistakes and flaws and learning from them.  I believe that if you look for it you can find truth everywhere, both in science, religion, psychology, philosophy and everyday life.  Truth is precious, and no one source has all of it.*  It is when we think we already know everything, that we stop searching, and stop progressing.  We learn from each other.   I personally believe that is why we are here.  Why different people have strengths AND weaknesses.  But the only way we can learn from each other is if we're not afraid to share.  Warts and all.  Especially the warts.  You learn the most from those.  So bear with me as I share my struggles and expose my warts humanity in my search for my truth of how to be a better person.


*that is a loaded statement I fully realize has the potential to piss off religious people.  I say this not because I don't think that God has all the answers.  (I also fully realize that the double negative in that sentence will also piss off English majors).  Because (wait for it) I actually DO think that God is the source of ALL truth.   But I also realize that then my point that I am trying to make might be rendered invalid; in saying that God has the answers, many people will assume you can't find any truth in non-religious places (and therefore not try, or not see it when it is there).